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Disgrace! You screamed at me, in all your strength, and authority
I crawled in the worst self, and I bought it all, without any clarity
Denial! You yelled at me when I put you in front of your mistakes
You then carved my skin with unbearable marks you would consider as fakes
Sanctitude of wounds / I remain the one they broke
Cast a spell on me / so I don't feel its grasp when I choke
Wishing a thousand hours of rest / Breathing in the essence of eternal sleep
Living a thousand torments in my head / While my body doesn't mark, I feel the guilt
"Let me help you, lay your head on my chest
I will comfort you in these times of no rest
Let me be the one
Who gives you the fire"
And this guilt I feel is just a growing seed, a tree inside my mind
And all the leaves don't bloom; stillborn, like dead butterflies
And the branches ripping my flesh, until I feel every nerves, every endings
And I feel this fire but nothing burns, it's just a child that dies inside my being
"Hush now, sweetheart. You will sleep.
Time has come, sweetheart. Let it seep."
It's burning off my pale skin / Growling flames using my vocal chords as a violin
"Open your heart, open your mouth and scream your broken lungs out
The violence has come, the darkness will fall, a one-timed blackout
You will wake, you will live, and you heart will bleed
But you will keep this fire that doesn't burn until you're freed"
I greeted Death, and She left me to live again
The memories that broke me still intact
In my heart, and in my cursed body
Until I see Her again, I shall bleed
I shall bleed
"Open your heart, open your mouth and scream your broken lungs out
The violence has come, the darkness will fall, a one-timed blackout
You will wake, you will live, and you heart will bleed
But you will keep this fire that doesn't burn until you're freed"
But until then, I shall bleed.
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All the meanders engulfed all hope
Yet it seems that all could become even worse
My mind doesn't make sense, all is amplified
The joys I feel a mostly drowned by butterfly's wings
(Get away from all) Distance is queen
(Get away from all) Confinement is the key
I can't interact, I cannot speak ideas
The world I've lived until I died was just a hidden galeria
"I wish that I would never have stepped in this reality
This emotion lingers, and brings a sparkle
The bliss that I would never be Death and the Tree
I'm an abandoned shell, waiting for a miracle"
They've all abandonned me
Left me for the reject that I am
Told me I can't be like them
Why do they speak to me
I cannot fathom
These fucking phantoms
Lingering around me, laughing when I'm leaving
And my body can't process this shit, adrenalin
"I wish that I would never have stepped in this reality
This emotion lingers, and brings a sparkle
The bliss that I would never be Death and the Tree
I'm an abandoned shell, waiting for a miracle"
"My friend, wake up, this is no dream, come to me
Don't fall apart, they won't give up, come to me"
I've seen it all, it destroyed me beyond recognition
Down in these meanders, I've seen so much, so I made a mission
To get the fuck away and survive, mentally I'm dead but i'm alive
I only knew it would be hard, but I can't let it out, and I cannot cry
"It's going to be so fucking harsh / You'll hate every second that passes by
All life we knew before is gone / And now it's time to come undone"
"I wish that I would never have stepped in this reality
This emotion lingers, and brings a sparkle
The bliss that I would never be Death and the Tree
I'm an abandoned shell, waiting for a miracle"
Oh Father Earth, embrace me
Let me die under the Judas Tree
Oh Father Earth, forgive me
I don't know if I'm a strong enough being
"Clasp the Light" / Illuminate my soul
"And let the Night" / Erase my soul
"Start the Fight" / Against the right
"Let your mouth ignite" / In hope for twilight
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"Tide against this tide, I’m crushed and struggle once more.
I’m weak but i fight. I sink in your eyes"
I sink in your eyes
Wave after wave / Pushing me down
"The shore is so near / But I feel so far"
Let me reach your harbor / Let me find myself
Let me reach you / In your silent waters
Time against my time, I’m lost in this desert once more
Show me your beacon. I sink in your eyes
I'm lost. Show me your beacon
I'm lost in your eyes
How can I fear the beauty of the one who defied Death
How can I be in love, how can I be so low, cause I know that from love I am but bereft
"Time against my time, I’m lost in this desert once more
Show me your beacon. I sink in your eyes"
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Woe! Distress still lives / Mindless decision
Filled with unseen holes / Crippling depression
Constant light / Bloodshot eyes
Can't see the shapes, can't see the world / A corner, foetal, out cries
Giving a rope, scratching the throat, there is no antidote
Breathing the secret that keeps one from thinking about self cutthroat
I feel / that no one sees what I see in this light
I'd creep in the shadows / so I would meet Fate and rip off its fire
Understand me as I mean no harm / I just want a piece of euphoria
Cause the darkness still lingers and bring self loathing, I need out
Bring me the spices that ruined my world, let me go down with it
Why can't I be just another one to reach this fucking pit
What have I become? I've said these words too much
I don't even remember, like nothing happened and such
I speak in simple tongues, don't hold it against me
But I've seen my youth ripped from me, I live but I'm not complete
I'm not complete
Woe! Distress still lives / Mindless depression
Filled with unseen holes / Crippling decision
Constant light / Bloodshot eyes
In this shape, I can't compete / as I am not complete
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